By Gökçe Küçük


First thing I do when I wake up is to confront someone in my head who’s upset me in the slightest way known to mankind

Second thing I do is to stand in the middle of an industrial zone and photocopy stuff.

No-one gives me more anxiety than the cleaning lady in the office

Nothing gives me more relief than knowing that in a few weeks time, I won’t remember the moment you were sick of me.

You are exactly 1900 miles away, and according to Google maps, that’s five countries away from where I am.

Some may argue that Yandex is more accurate, but no metal box with solar wings can change the fact that you will never again look at me and say, ‘Can you really eat all that?’

I want to go back to that night when you had to explain carefully to me why you liked putting my leg between your legs and I needed you to know at the time that I wasn’t judging you at the slightest

If I could turn back time, I’d go back to 10 minutes ago and have the peynirli poğaça instead of zeytinli açma.

If I could turn back time, I’d go back to five weeks ago and slap myself in my stupid fucking face for telling you you weren’t all that special

I feel like I’m at a stage where I finally remember you as I should have in the first place.

You’re actually six countries away, if we count Hungary as well.


Gökçe Küçük is an İstanbulite by birth, Kiwi by transplant operation. She has a high profile as a comdeienne extraordinaire and performs regularly in Istanbul when around. She also writes poetry and translates.